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Princess
Gwendolyn黒崎
17
Her idiosyncrasy is an absolute copyright.
I'm a trashy teenager whom plays guitar,is into cosplay,loves trekking,a self claim author cum science geek and a drama princess.Arent I awesome? XD
The talk of the town
*Guitar
*Music is my intervention
*Romance books
*Travelling
*Having fun
*Intoxicated in her reverie
*Idyllic-ness
*Peaceful tranquil days
*Delirious
*Mates
*Pokemon!(you got a prob with it?)
*Doraemon
*Tons of other random cartoon.
Wish me a miracle
I don't give shit to what spammers think XD
The indelible words
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 Monday, January 29, 2007  @ 1:27 PM I kinda wished i never went out today,i'm so paranoid today,when lucas,michael and victor were late for 15 mins,i started panicking,that's how worse my insecurity was,i didn't sat with them in the theatre,making the horror show more scarier,we went pizza hut and after that walked around,i turned totally cold,i feel that i really wanted today to be a great one,and i was really disappointed it didn't....i'm really tired,i do belive there is God,otherwise i won't go church,but whatever i wanted NEVER seem to come,i'm tired of making up excuses to myself why God doesn't wanna give it to me...i don't expect the guys to send me home,and its not like they can read my mind,but everytime i turn quiet or smth,its me feeling so insecure,scared about losing something,even the most trival ones....i thought i really defeated depression,even multiplication only made me upset for a night,i thought that was really great,until tonight i realise it wasn't like that,the depression didn't go away,it is confined in my heart,as it accumulate more,with the help of my total insecurity,every tear i shed pierce through my heart like all my depression added together,then all i think about is negative thoughts,it's so painful....i dread school tml,i swear i'll howl at the first person who give me the slightest discomfort...i'm really tired....when can i ever have a day without sadness again?
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Monday, January 29, 2007 @ 1:27 PM I kinda wished i never went out today,i'm so paranoid today,when lucas,michael and victor were late for 15 mins,i started panicking,that's how worse my insecurity was,i didn't sat with them in the theatre,making the horror show more scarier,we went pizza hut and after that walked around,i turned totally cold,i feel that i really wanted today to be a great one,and i was really disappointed it didn't....i'm really tired,i do belive there is God,otherwise i won't go church,but whatever i wanted NEVER seem to come,i'm tired of making up excuses to myself why God doesn't wanna give it to me...i don't expect the guys to send me home,and its not like they can read my mind,but everytime i turn quiet or smth,its me feeling so insecure,scared about losing something,even the most trival ones....i thought i really defeated depression,even multiplication only made me upset for a night,i thought that was really great,until tonight i realise it wasn't like that,the depression didn't go away,it is confined in my heart,as it accumulate more,with the help of my total insecurity,every tear i shed pierce through my heart like all my depression added together,then all i think about is negative thoughts,it's so painful....i dread school tml,i swear i'll howl at the first person who give me the slightest discomfort...i'm really tired....when can i ever have a day without sadness again?
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why doesn't anyone understands,how hard i'm trying...
Amanda
