i love hubby!he so ke lian he hates taking photos but im an abusive wife that doesnt take no for an answer.LALALA!
So anyway,after that i went to amanda's house.We went to eat laksa <3

after eating,we took a bus to vivo and went to meet her friends.Made introductions and we head towards St.James.The queue was freaking long,but it was the perfect chance to dish out potention eye candies and such.But still,i was bored stiff.

Then i looked around and saw girls caked up with make up and they look really glam.For me i was wearing sneakers and only my eye linear.So i was thinking if any guy would picked me amidst all of those pretty girls,i mean,i have got to be special or smth right?It's not like i was the well dressed or prettiest girl there.

Took us 2 hours(after cutting infront of zx's friend jonathon) to get in.While queueing,they saw this guy named Jonathon(tmd so many ppl name jonathon are hot,ps this is another jonathon that's their's friend's friend,complicated i know...)Then they kept gushing over how cute he is and suddenly,i felt like a female species from outer space or smth.

Gave our bags to the bouncer and went in to dance.Zx and me were seperated from the gang due to the crowed and truthfully,today was like a funny experience from a 3rd party's view.When we were at the station,we were saying who should we rescue each other from.Some wanted to hook up with girls,some with guys,and i told them just pulll me away from anyone cept for themselves.




So when me and Zx was dancing,this malay guy poke me and gave me the thumbs up and asked, 'ok?' .So i thought he was asking me if i was feeling well so i just nodded and smile and continued dancing.Turns out he wanted to dance with me and i just shrugged.He tried to hug me while dancing and ZX,true to her word,helped me out by dancing with me with her hands on my waist,i was laughin her giving her the appreciated look.He finally move on knowing im not a good target.


we saw jonathon*zx's friend* amongst the crowd and pulled him towards us,then he did the protective guy thing and prevent people from grinding or touching us.Thxxxxx!then!I SAW MY CUTE GUY!ok when we were waiting,we were at the parking lot and i saw this really cute guy!he was behind me at the table!too bad he looked really common?his face stood out,but his style and everything looks the same from the rest of the guys there T.T

i was telling ZX but it was so crowded she couldn't hear me and see him.I was losing my breath too.Around 2am,we head to the bar and i text amanda.It's no fun without the group.finally met up them after half an hour of seearching and we ordered drink with our free ticket.







The bartender was really nice,cuz ZX gave her ticket to amanda so we only had one,but he gave us two drinks.I smile at him and he wink at me!haha.I gulped down the drink and then,this 30 plus caucasian guy approached me.I could smell the alcohol frm his mouth.


AM:"Hey"
Me:hey
AM:So,are you here with just a friend?
M:nope,the rest are dancing out there.
AM:Can i buy you a drink?M:errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr....


I mean i was thirsty but i knew better what would happen if he did.
M:I'm drinking.

he peers into my cup.

AM:drinking ice?
M:......




ok seriously,i would have laugh loudly if this happen to some other person.Then i nudge Zx,she notice and we pretended to be engage in a conversation,the guy gradually gave up and walk away.PHEW!After that,we met up with amanda and the rest again and we finally manage to dance as a group.





What was annoying is the this group of malay guys surrounded our circle but failed cause we moved around too much,one guy managed to get G the whole way.There was a guy dancing behind me,i could feel his chest at my back and once,i felt him grinding and his ahemmmm~Okay,i mean i went clubbing once before too but this was more real compared to the last one,as the last one was a private party.'sides,compared to G,my experience was so much better.the guy molested her to the extend like he was dry sexing with her,he stuck his finger up her.....................................................FCKER LA!




Anyway,compared to other guys,he didn't tried to take advantage of me or anything.so its cool (:

But seriously,then for some reason the gang kept giving me thumbs up and approving looks?Then amanda told me the guy is cute.i couldnt turn cuz if i did,my head would sure bump into his.When the lights came on,he was walking to the exit,i turn to see him turn to look at me,our gaze linger for a while and my mouth automatically twist into a smile. then he started walking back(!!?!) then an encore song played and everything just got lost in the dark and people stopped in their tracks and continued dancing.




After we exited,we were standing there groaning.MY WAIST HURT LA!!!then guess who i saw?JAMES!i was hiding but too late,he saw me.I know he regconise me.Seriously why do i always see him?><

We were planning where to go next and i was like,'eh?the bag how?'
then they all told me they took it?!like wth,i was with them the whole time and i didn't know!so i went back to take it and the person was like,



'you 150 ah?'


so i showed them the tag and they cheered(really loudly)!LOL!cuz i was the last one and they were worrying or they were rushing off or smth.FUNNY SHIT! Then head back and we sat at the hawker centre.James was sitting behind me!with his girlfriend or something?then amanda said he's hot and wants his number.zzzzzzzzzzz~lol!!!then when i walked past babycake's (aka 'hot' jonathon)group,i saw the whole group turn to look at me,then one of them said,




"....think she mixed blood or something..."




Then i walk back to the table and i sat down,look up and the group turned back,flustered.ZZZZZZZZZZZ.seriously,the whole,i know people wanted to come up and talk to me,but so coward.i guess i have this really intimidating presence,cept when i smile,it ruins it.hahaha!they kept saying a lot of guys tried to hook up with me and that it wasn't bad for a real clubbing experience,but seriously,i only enjoyed the part when i danced with the group,who gives shit about the guys right?cept for my eye candy of course (:




My self esteem had taken a huge plunge lately thanks to the hectic schedule i've been pulled into.Though it felt like really scandalous,but im glad i peaked up tons of guy's interest,at least i know nothing's wrong with me.




I mean,i don't think i have that eurasian look anymore or looked pretty that it matters.I can actually bore myself to sleep looking at the mirror.haha.So,when they told me there were tons of guys were interested in me today,i can't help but feel a little proud and "settled".But beneath all of those feelings,i felt like this piece of wood.I couldn't really take in the flattery and attention much,like it wouldn't sink it,like my emotions are temporarily and i will become this same huge void again later.


home at 6.30am.

Guitar lesson later.im.......so...........dead.

i love hubby!he so ke lian he hates taking photos but im an abusive wife that doesnt take no for an answer.LALALA!
So anyway,after that i went to amanda's house.We went to eat laksa <3

after eating,we took a bus to vivo and went to meet her friends.Made introductions and we head towards St.James.The queue was freaking long,but it was the perfect chance to dish out potention eye candies and such.But still,i was bored stiff.

Then i looked around and saw girls caked up with make up and they look really glam.For me i was wearing sneakers and only my eye linear.So i was thinking if any guy would picked me amidst all of those pretty girls,i mean,i have got to be special or smth right?It's not like i was the well dressed or prettiest girl there.

Took us 2 hours(after cutting infront of zx's friend jonathon) to get in.While queueing,they saw this guy named Jonathon(tmd so many ppl name jonathon are hot,ps this is another jonathon that's their's friend's friend,complicated i know...)Then they kept gushing over how cute he is and suddenly,i felt like a female species from outer space or smth.

Gave our bags to the bouncer and went in to dance.Zx and me were seperated from the gang due to the crowed and truthfully,today was like a funny experience from a 3rd party's view.When we were at the station,we were saying who should we rescue each other from.Some wanted to hook up with girls,some with guys,and i told them just pulll me away from anyone cept for themselves.




So when me and Zx was dancing,this malay guy poke me and gave me the thumbs up and asked, 'ok?' .So i thought he was asking me if i was feeling well so i just nodded and smile and continued dancing.Turns out he wanted to dance with me and i just shrugged.He tried to hug me while dancing and ZX,true to her word,helped me out by dancing with me with her hands on my waist,i was laughin her giving her the appreciated look.He finally move on knowing im not a good target.


we saw jonathon*zx's friend* amongst the crowd and pulled him towards us,then he did the protective guy thing and prevent people from grinding or touching us.Thxxxxx!then!I SAW MY CUTE GUY!ok when we were waiting,we were at the parking lot and i saw this really cute guy!he was behind me at the table!too bad he looked really common?his face stood out,but his style and everything looks the same from the rest of the guys there T.T

i was telling ZX but it was so crowded she couldn't hear me and see him.I was losing my breath too.Around 2am,we head to the bar and i text amanda.It's no fun without the group.finally met up them after half an hour of seearching and we ordered drink with our free ticket.







The bartender was really nice,cuz ZX gave her ticket to amanda so we only had one,but he gave us two drinks.I smile at him and he wink at me!haha.I gulped down the drink and then,this 30 plus caucasian guy approached me.I could smell the alcohol frm his mouth.


AM:"Hey"
Me:hey
AM:So,are you here with just a friend?
M:nope,the rest are dancing out there.
AM:Can i buy you a drink?M:errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr....


I mean i was thirsty but i knew better what would happen if he did.
M:I'm drinking.

he peers into my cup.

AM:drinking ice?
M:......




ok seriously,i would have laugh loudly if this happen to some other person.Then i nudge Zx,she notice and we pretended to be engage in a conversation,the guy gradually gave up and walk away.PHEW!After that,we met up with amanda and the rest again and we finally manage to dance as a group.





What was annoying is the this group of malay guys surrounded our circle but failed cause we moved around too much,one guy managed to get G the whole way.There was a guy dancing behind me,i could feel his chest at my back and once,i felt him grinding and his ahemmmm~Okay,i mean i went clubbing once before too but this was more real compared to the last one,as the last one was a private party.'sides,compared to G,my experience was so much better.the guy molested her to the extend like he was dry sexing with her,he stuck his finger up her.....................................................FCKER LA!




Anyway,compared to other guys,he didn't tried to take advantage of me or anything.so its cool (:

But seriously,then for some reason the gang kept giving me thumbs up and approving looks?Then amanda told me the guy is cute.i couldnt turn cuz if i did,my head would sure bump into his.When the lights came on,he was walking to the exit,i turn to see him turn to look at me,our gaze linger for a while and my mouth automatically twist into a smile. then he started walking back(!!?!) then an encore song played and everything just got lost in the dark and people stopped in their tracks and continued dancing.




After we exited,we were standing there groaning.MY WAIST HURT LA!!!then guess who i saw?JAMES!i was hiding but too late,he saw me.I know he regconise me.Seriously why do i always see him?><

We were planning where to go next and i was like,'eh?the bag how?'
then they all told me they took it?!like wth,i was with them the whole time and i didn't know!so i went back to take it and the person was like,



'you 150 ah?'


so i showed them the tag and they cheered(really loudly)!LOL!cuz i was the last one and they were worrying or they were rushing off or smth.FUNNY SHIT! Then head back and we sat at the hawker centre.James was sitting behind me!with his girlfriend or something?then amanda said he's hot and wants his number.zzzzzzzzzzz~lol!!!then when i walked past babycake's (aka 'hot' jonathon)group,i saw the whole group turn to look at me,then one of them said,




"....think she mixed blood or something..."




Then i walk back to the table and i sat down,look up and the group turned back,flustered.ZZZZZZZZZZZ.seriously,the whole,i know people wanted to come up and talk to me,but so coward.i guess i have this really intimidating presence,cept when i smile,it ruins it.hahaha!they kept saying a lot of guys tried to hook up with me and that it wasn't bad for a real clubbing experience,but seriously,i only enjoyed the part when i danced with the group,who gives shit about the guys right?cept for my eye candy of course (:




My self esteem had taken a huge plunge lately thanks to the hectic schedule i've been pulled into.Though it felt like really scandalous,but im glad i peaked up tons of guy's interest,at least i know nothing's wrong with me.




I mean,i don't think i have that eurasian look anymore or looked pretty that it matters.I can actually bore myself to sleep looking at the mirror.haha.So,when they told me there were tons of guys were interested in me today,i can't help but feel a little proud and "settled".But beneath all of those feelings,i felt like this piece of wood.I couldn't really take in the flattery and attention much,like it wouldn't sink it,like my emotions are temporarily and i will become this same huge void again later.


home at 6.30am.

Guitar lesson later.im.......so...........dead.